Growing Up

It's transition day today, Lucy has been in yr 1 to meet her new teacher and see her new class and Leila has spent the morning at nursery where she will be going full time in September. They both seem happy, I can tell I'm going to have no problems with Leila. Of course now I'm thinking about how much sadder I'd be feeling about losing both my girls if Joseph wasn't arriving soon. They are growing so quickly.

If I wasn't pregnant then I'd be seriously considering returning to work. I'd love to go back to work, I'd do anything but I'd be really chuffed to get a job back at  the university. I don't think I could leave a baby at home though, so I'll just have to wait a bit longer. My dream would be for my online shop to take off so well that I could actually get premises and run my own shop. Who knows, I'm usually quite optimistic so maybe it's something I could work towards.

I've been really busy working on the shop, I'm currently setting up a new website as the one I currently have doesn't fit my needs. So much for jumping in without much research, oh well, lesson learnt.

Another Birthday

When I was around 16-17 yrs old I used to love taking out my little brother and a couple of my nieces and nephews. We would get a day saver ticket which could be used for both trains and buses and just go anywhere. One of our favourite places was Birmingham Airport. We would go to the viewing lounge and watch the planes take off and land and ride the monorail over and over.
The one day we decided just to take the bus into town. When we got there I realised we'd left my brother's coat on the bus. I was worried about what my mum would say when we got home and it put me in a mood for the day. A couple of hours later we caught the bus home and there right were we had left it was my brother's coat. The chances of catching the same bus were so minimal, it must have been my lucky day.

It all seems like a lifetime away now.

In memory of my brother who would have 37 today!

Happy Birthday Cassie-Ann

21 years ago today I was blessed with my first beautiful daughter. She was a pure delight, a real angelic little baby who fed well and slept well right from the start. As she grew she had the most gorgeous blonde curls, both me and her dad were brown haired but mum had always said I was born with blonde curls and I never really believed her until I had Cassie-Ann. She was always a pleasant bubbly girl with lots of friends.
And now my little girl is a woman, it's almost too hard to believe. 21 years may seem like a long time, but it's not when you are watching your baby grow.

She probably won't read this but I wanted to dedicate this post to her. Her life has been troublesome at times but she's pulled through and I'm so proud of her. She has achieved loads but I know she can go further and have a wonderful future. It's what she deserves.

So happy birthday to my first daughter, I wish you everything you ever dreamed of, and I love you more than words can say.

Work Work Work

Well, I've been incredibly busy working on my online shop. I've added new stock, made some changes to the site, done tons of promoting, made lots of new contacts, done tons of research, made a Facebook Fan Page, a Facebook shop to showcase stuff that doesn't fit into the shop and worked on my BTTradespace.
I'm also writing a blog about my venture.

In other news, the rest of this week is going to be busy. Tomorrow I have my ante natal appointment to see if little man is growing or not. They were a bit concerned about his growth last visit so fingers tightly crossed that he's ok.

Thursday my ex husband comes over from France for our daughters 21st Birthday next week. That will be two adult children that I have..eeek!

Friday I'm going to be busy with shopping and cleaning.

Saturday I'm having a BBQ party so there will be lots of preparation followed by a fun evening (hopefully) at least it looks like the weather is going to be nice. Probably so nice I won't be able to go outside as it will be too hot for me.

So this week will probably pass quickly and I'll be one week closer to meeting my little man. I can't wait to meet him, but I'm not willing him to come early. He's due at the perfect time (School holidays and inbetween other birthdays) so no rush. Just beginning to feel a little excitement now.

Football Fever!

Nah, I'm joking, you won't catch me talking about the football, what's the World Cup anyway?

So instead I'll give you a rundown of the last week. Firstly, I'm still feeling a bit low, not as bad as I was but I've only got the hormones to blame.

My lovely brother and his wife have split up. She had a gastric bypass about 18 months ago and went from a size 20 to a size 10. Then she went and got herself a new boyfriend and kicked my brother out. It's the kids I feel for most, they are not taking it very well. I'm sure my brother will pick himself up, it's always hard at first but I honestly think they will be better off without each other in the long run. I just hope he doesn't go and do anything stupid, he's tried before.

Today my travel system turned up (7.30am) I've been stressing out so much about it, it's such a relief that it's finally here. I'm really pleased with it too.Ok it's not one of the fancier pushchairs, and I did have my eye on another one, but as I was about £400 short of the cost I had to make do. But it doesn't feel like making do because I'm happy with it.

I've been working so hard on my online shop Sweetbabylula but I've yet to reap any rewards. It's early days yet though so my fingers are crossed. I wish I could afford to pay for advertising but I can't yet, as soon as I've earned enough it will go on advertising so I can hopefully earn more. It's keeping me busy and distracted anyway, which is good.

I've been having a few more problems with my pregnancy but you can read about that in my pregnancy journal  I'm feeling a little rough, but as long as baby is ok then I can cope.

ON Sunday we had a day out at the local farm open day. The sun was lovely and they had lots to see and do. The girls had a go on the bouncy castle, decorated cookies, played music and watched a very un-pc Punch and Judy show. We got home about 1/2 hour before the storms started!

So that's my week. This week I don't have much planned but next week my ex husband is coming over from France for our daughters 21st birthday. I'm having a BBQ a week on Saturday so fingers crossed for sunny weather.

Not a Great Day

Today started at 4am when Graham came to bed and woke me and Lucy up. This is not a rare occurance and I've tried to talk to him about it, but all I get is empty promises and an empty bed until 4am. Anyway, this morning neither myself or Lucy could get back to sleep so we ended up getting up at 5am.



Then I have to run my eldest daughter to work and pick her up, my eldest son to work and pick him up, my OH to the jobcentre and back, visit the shops twice and do the school run in the pouring rain. I've barely had 5 mins to myself.
Then this afternoon I had my ante natal appointment and first find out that I have +4 blood and +2 protein in my urine. They've sent the sample for further testing and the mw will call me when the results come back.
Then she checks my blood results from 28 weeks and I'm anaemic 9.2, so I have to take iron tablets.


Then she has a feel of baby and measures my fundal height. I know it's not completely accurate but he's only grown 1cm in 3 weeks when he should have grown 3cm. So I have to go back in 2 weeks to see if he's back on track.

He is moving loads though, and head down (although not engaged yet) and his heartbeat was good and strong.


Then to top off my day, this evening Graham deserted me so I had to bath two very tired and stressed out kids (Lucy is a nightmare when she's tired and she'd been up since 4am and at school all day) get them ready for bed and take them to bed without his help. I had to phone him to come home so I could go and pick up my eldest from work. It's only a 1/2hour walk but there was a big storm and she would have been soaked through. When I got back I cooked her dinner, cleaned up (usually do this before girls go to bed but didn't get the chance tonight) washed up and sorted out the washing and clothes for tomorrow all while Graham sat watching the tv. After, I collapsed on the sofa and said I'd love a cup of tea, but he said sorry I promised John (his brother) I'd cut his hair and he just walked out. I know that's the last I'll see of him tonight.


Oh and I've just filed a dispute with Paypal because after buying a new travel system off Ebay I've not recieved it, and I've had no replies to any of my e-mails to the seller so it looks like I've been ripped off. If I don't get my money back I don't have any more to buy another one.


So I'm sitting here now feeling tearful and trying to tell myself that things could be much worse. I think I'll just go to bed and pray tomorrow is a better day.

New Venture

I suppose you could say that now is not the time for me to be starting up a new business, but I've given it a lot of thought and I know I can do it. I'm starting up an online shop selling baby clothes. It will be pretty small to begin with but I have a lot of big ideas for some very original products in the future (when I will have more time and money.)

I've just sent my shop live and I would so appreciate anyone reading this to give it a look and any feedback would be most grateful. You could always use the contact form on the site so I can test that works too. And of course the shop is live now and I am able to take orders if anything takes your eye :-)

So here it is; SweetBabyLula

Fingers crossed for very few teething problems.

Also, I've started a new blog to record everything from now on. So if you might think this is something you'd be interested in doing then you can follow my progress. The blog is here

Now I just have to wait for those orders to start rolling in.